right now

i'm three different people

1) the person people want me to be - She's there to help, and cry to. She'll listen to anything you have to say and will always help out. She's always smiling and laughing and you always expect her to say something for you to laugh at and you always expect her to laugh at what you say. If you cry, you expect her to dry your tears each time. You don't ever expect her to have problems herself, as she's there to sort out your problems each times. She knows the answer to every situation you are in. She's never upset and she always looks on the sunny side of a downpour. She isn't scared of anything, and never has fears. She's perfect.

2) the person i actually am - i have a lot more problems then people expect me to have, and i don't have the answers all the time. I get scared about a lot of things and I worry too much. I don't always smile and i don't always want to laugh, that's just the way it is. I have problems too, and i want someone to cry to. I want help just as much as you do. When I'm the person who listens to everyone, you find it hard to listen to me. I never see the sunny side of a downpour, because i can be very pessimistic it's just who i am.

3) the person i want to be - She's a kind, warm-hearted kind of person. She knows how to handle her problems and the situations she gets in. She knows not to panic at everything, and to balance good from bad instead of letting one negative emotion pull her down. She's very optimistic, but understands it's okay to feel down once in a while. She understands that not everyone is going to be there all the time, without questioning why. She doesn't feel alone, and is comfortable with expressing her emotions to people. She will know the answers and she will help those who need her.

That's why, i'm asking people to please leave me whilst i try to become the person i want to be. I want to be a better person, I want to change. what's wrong with changing for the better?
I'm sorry that this blog isn't very cheery. it's just fact.
It's about time I start taking responsibility


Listening to: What Gets You Through the Night - theAUDITION
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