and I'm so sorry it's taken me so long. I hope you've all been OK in my absence.
I've been thinking alot lately, and I've been writing. I've been writing about thinking, and thinking about writing. Thoughts are wonderful things when they are put into place, and actions speak louder then words.
In all honesty this isn't the only way I express myself, I have a journel and I hope that one day I can look back at it and think "that's not me anymore, and I'm glad." It sort of contridicts to be glad with who you are but things aren't always perfect. Neither am I. I know things are going to work out, i've seen living proof of it.
I have this friend, see...
He was in a relly bad state from his birth up til about 13. Even before his birth he wasn't loved the way he should of been. He was used and abused until his friend helped and saved him. This was probably the biggest turning point of his life, he fell lucky in love and everything was OK for a few months. Then he fell into the wrong hands with another partner and things turned sour again and got involved this things that were above his head. Although it felt like his friend had saved him, he hadn't things were going wrong again. It was on the 19th of July 2007 everything changed for him. We had finished school and were going into year 10, they had finished GCSEs and one person in this world had changed his life. So now, he's 17 happily in love with somebody who's perfect for him and knows exactly what he wants from the future. And if his life story doesn't inspire you or comfort you in knowing that things will turn out for the better, then I don't know what does. Everytime he does something wrong in life and things take a nose dive he has his partner there to help him each step of the way, even today.
Things may look shitty, but it'll be ok
maybe you'll find somebody like my friend did
Infact, i'm sure you will
Sunday, 30 November 2008
Thursday, 20 November 2008
I just wasted 10 seconds
of your life. DOO!
Today has been so funny, especially drama and art. Jess makes me laugh so much, she's great.
"I just wasted..."
"10 minutes"
"of your"
"WEASEL!"
"Weasel?!"
We turned Relient K opera style. She then recycled on my finger which we wouldn't stop laughing at for agessss. We like crispy fresh drenched spring water! Lmao. Drama's the best especially when the whole class bursts into an Annie song, and then stop to think about what it would sound like to the surrounding classrooms.
It's been so weird today, it really has. In reality I've been so low and upset due to bad news, and I shouldn't of laughed half of much as I did today, and I do realise that I was a dick at break for crying like that but it's something I just didn't want to know even though in a way I had to.
Why do such awful things happen to such amazing people? It's not fair, it sucks so much. She makes me laugh and is such a nice person, yet she has so much shit in her life. However due to some of the best people probably ever on this Earth, I just couldn't help that odd laugh or smile constantly throughout the day. I'm not insensitive, I did feel crap throughout the day but I just couldn't help but smile and laugh at things today.
I hope things turned out okay for everybody. I don't want to hear "it's going to be okay." or "you're gonna be alright". How does anybody know things are going to be okay, maybe they'll just have to stay like this, I have no idea how long it's gone on for. It's not me that I care about being alright, it's my friend.
Ahwell I guess things can only start to look up, right?
In the end we're all just human.
Today has been so funny, especially drama and art. Jess makes me laugh so much, she's great.
"I just wasted..."
"10 minutes"
"of your"
"WEASEL!"
"Weasel?!"
We turned Relient K opera style. She then recycled on my finger which we wouldn't stop laughing at for agessss. We like crispy fresh drenched spring water! Lmao. Drama's the best especially when the whole class bursts into an Annie song, and then stop to think about what it would sound like to the surrounding classrooms.
It's been so weird today, it really has. In reality I've been so low and upset due to bad news, and I shouldn't of laughed half of much as I did today, and I do realise that I was a dick at break for crying like that but it's something I just didn't want to know even though in a way I had to.
Why do such awful things happen to such amazing people? It's not fair, it sucks so much. She makes me laugh and is such a nice person, yet she has so much shit in her life. However due to some of the best people probably ever on this Earth, I just couldn't help that odd laugh or smile constantly throughout the day. I'm not insensitive, I did feel crap throughout the day but I just couldn't help but smile and laugh at things today.
I hope things turned out okay for everybody. I don't want to hear "it's going to be okay." or "you're gonna be alright". How does anybody know things are going to be okay, maybe they'll just have to stay like this, I have no idea how long it's gone on for. It's not me that I care about being alright, it's my friend.
Ahwell I guess things can only start to look up, right?
In the end we're all just human.
Wednesday, 19 November 2008
Move over kids
Coist has arrived.
So I've finally set up a real blog. Instead of my temporary one on bebo. I guess I don't really have a set theme for a blog, just a place I can throw up thoughts.
This isn't going to be a full length one, just a small introduction one methinks. I've had a long day and I'm extremely tired, wanting to go to sleep but it never happened. I'm heading over to the bathroom to get a bath and chillax, it's been all grades and work today. All in just one day of Coist's life.
So hey there, I'm Coist and it's a pleasure to see you and always a privilage to talk to you. I guess I'm the lucky one here. I'm in my final year at school, heading to college with my file on my back and my nerves pouring out. I have the greatest friends ever, but there's never anything stopping you to open your mouth and speak out to me. There are a few vital things that you need to understand
a) I have the biggest phobia of needles.
b) I don't do geography (or my 4 times table) so I don't mean to offend
c) I say the most stupid of things, and do the dumbest things so i apologise in advance
d) I'm over obsessive with certain things -.-
e) I find almost everything funny, so I'm quite easy to get on with.
Well, you beautiful people it's time for me to go and chillax
it's nice to meet you.
xo
So I've finally set up a real blog. Instead of my temporary one on bebo. I guess I don't really have a set theme for a blog, just a place I can throw up thoughts.
This isn't going to be a full length one, just a small introduction one methinks. I've had a long day and I'm extremely tired, wanting to go to sleep but it never happened. I'm heading over to the bathroom to get a bath and chillax, it's been all grades and work today. All in just one day of Coist's life.
So hey there, I'm Coist and it's a pleasure to see you and always a privilage to talk to you. I guess I'm the lucky one here. I'm in my final year at school, heading to college with my file on my back and my nerves pouring out. I have the greatest friends ever, but there's never anything stopping you to open your mouth and speak out to me. There are a few vital things that you need to understand
a) I have the biggest phobia of needles.
b) I don't do geography (or my 4 times table) so I don't mean to offend
c) I say the most stupid of things, and do the dumbest things so i apologise in advance
d) I'm over obsessive with certain things -.-
e) I find almost everything funny, so I'm quite easy to get on with.
Well, you beautiful people it's time for me to go and chillax
it's nice to meet you.
xo
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